New Year , new start same old feelings

Well I enjoyed Christmas for a change and actually felt quite uplifted  by it. The downside for me is always the fact that the main emphasis appears to be on spending a load of money that most people can barely afford and being cheered on doing it by an ever more cynical and greedy retail sector.
The aftermath though does leave me feeling depressed and although I have actually been at work for 3 days over the Christmas period I still feel a great deal of anxiety about the main return to work tomorrow. Actually it feels like I am playing Russian Roulette with a 9mm semi automatic in terms of my stability.
I just hope I can weather this period again and come around.