Darkness drawing in .

Noticed tinight that the evenings are really drawing in now, dark by 7.30 pm. That notwithstanding it was a really nice autumn weekend this week. Did a huge (for me) 50k road ride on the bike. Stunning views and good company really lifted my spirit  seems that is all I need some fresh air and exercise to get myself on a bit more of an even keel

Autumn has arrived

Today really feels like the first day of the new season,  dull and wet but with the splash of colour that the turning leaves bring.

New Considerations

If anyone actually reads this blog,  which I doubt, you will no doubt be aware that I seem to suffer from some very dark moods.
I recently came acriss the "Time for Change" web site which I found quite inspiring and from there some articles on Cognitive Behavior Therapy which sounds luke something I think I might look into.
Certainr some of the blog s on "Time for change" were so like my experiences that it struck a chord with me. Maybe a way to help myself?

Great end to the working day too

Since I enjoyed the ride in so much and it cleared my mind I decided ti use the ride home to do much the same and metaphorically close the door behind me on the office.  The 14k ride home was tough going into the headwind but was worth ir for the last 2.5k descent down into the village. I then felt really relaxed and de stressed and was glad to get home. We followed this up by picking yet more blackberries for moee vodka production.

Great start to the day

I decided that since I had enjoyed my cycling during the holiday period I would cycle into work today and have a nice long ride in. So I did this and had a good solid 18k road ride in on a cool but fine morning. It has set me up for the day.

Follow on from last post

I am not sure what was worse thw actual return to work and all the associated rubbish that came with it or the actual return. I had slept badly for the two days prior to my return to work something I do not do on hllkday. It was something preying on my mind all the time.
I think I am losing confidence in my own ability to do things.

Post holiday blues

I always find the return to normality after a holiday hard to deal with. I am not sure if this is not some sort of sign that I am unhappy with the general day to day path that my life moves along,  certainly I am not sure that I am happy with my work and I feel unfulfilled which I am sure is not a good sign. Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that I find so little time for myself and my relationship with my family dueing the normal course of things. Perhaps I need something to interest my mind. Either eay the next few fays will be a struggle for me to regain some sort of balance for my fragile mind.